Beowulf Prompt Answer

I feel as though this is rather the opposite of how I view the world. I believe that God works through all things according to his will. You know, sometimes I feel as though not everything is strictly concrete. As for what my "gray areas" may be, I know that when I write, I think about the endless possibilities that exist between the lines. And oddly enough, this doesn't create tension, it relaxes me. Sure sometimes I have to focus on one thing, the black and the white, bu that gray area is where I really find myself. My ability to write and be free when I write opens new doors and closes other.

Granted, there are certain "gray areas" that add a bit of stress to my life, i.e. where am I going to college or what the heck I am going to do for the rest of my life... and how will that help me in later life?? Acting. That's not very concrete. If I go and get a degree in acting, I'm not automatically offered a job... If I decide to get a degree in screenwriting, I'm not going to be approached by some big time director asking me to write a film for him. The movie industry is one of the most unstable areas in the job market... BUT, is it what I love? Yes. Is it what I am passionate about? Absolutely. But is it what God wants for me? How am I supposed to know what God wants me to do??

I've been struggling with this "area" and question for sometime now. How do I know that my wanting to go to Biola and study film and media and act and become a screenwriter isn't just what I want but what God wants too? I recently had a conversation with Mrs. Fiechtner and after asking her this question, she responded "If you have faith that God created the entire universe, that he sent his Son to earth, who accomplished amazing feats, who died on the cross and rose again 3 days later, and that he will come again someday to welcome you into his kingdom along with every other person on this earth who believes in Him, why can't you have faith that His will for your life can and will be done and that the faith that He has put in you will guide you to those great things he has in store for you??"

It was very interesting to here this. Here I am, one person, out of the millions of people who have ever walked the earth, and God knows exactly what he has in store for me. And yes, this also some "gray area"; but I have faith that God loves me and knows who I am,
And where I am going to college...
And what I am going to major in...
And what kind of career I will have...
And who I am going to marry...
And how many kids I am going to have...
And what their names are going to be...
And where we are going to live...
And what school I will send my kids to...
And how much money I will make through my job...
And if I will win an Academy Award...
And what kind of car I will have...
And what nursing home my kids will put me in...
...And finally, what glorious day I will return home to be with my Father in Heaven; he knows.

And while I may not be able to see the full picture now, God is piecing together the puzzle that is my life... and any gray area that might be on certain pieces of my puzzle, God will put them together in such a way that those gray areas become something great in the picture; part of His masterpiece and in the end will bring glory and honor to Him. :)